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[suki_blue]

I have a small piece of advice for you all:

Never tell lies. Even white ones can come back and sock you right in the face.

I was dishonest with a friend. I told her things were okay when they weren't and I led her to believe that our friendship was special when it wasn't. I did this so that I wouldn't hurt her.

But I couldn't stand it any longer. Something snapped and I finally had to tell her that i couldn't cope with our friendship any longer. She'll get the letter any second now.

And the reason that I didn't do it face to face?

I prefer to have all my bones unbroken, thank you. I just can't cope with a friend like that.

I can't cope with the drinking and the tension and the backstabbing and 'demon voices' in her head. She's crazy and she needs to be locked up and treated.

One day I'm positive that she'll kill someone. I don't want that someone to be me.

Selfish?

You bet.

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[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thanks for that, sweetie.

I did try, I really did, it's just that I have my limitations. And I also have a certain standard when it comes to friendship. I never felt that I could truely call her my friend. I think that the incident on holiday, if I ever told you about that, proved it beyong a doubt.

I'm just so glad that i've got friends like you and Kitty and BB and Twirl and C. You are all so wonderful and I love you all to itty bitty pieces

Thank you.

Although I feel awful for the way things have worked out and I'm dreading Monday morning, i do feel like a weight has been lifted.

And I think i'll take your advice for Monday!

[amejisuto.livejournal.com]

I don't think you mentioned what happened on holiday. Should I worry? I know you told her to be good or you'd be out of there so don't feel guilty. Hopefully your bosses will help on Monday. I know they were talking to you about her erratic behavior before that.

You'll get through this luv. You're a good person!

HUGGLES AND SNOGS!

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

No, don't worry. I was terrified at the time, but it's over now. And i know that I'll never put myslef in that postion again. I'll tell you about in an email later.

Yeah, I hope I'll get the help from my bosses if i need it. I'm sure it'll be fine. I just worry, you know?

Thanks, darling.

~hugs~

[amejisuto.livejournal.com]

You know, it's awful of me to say but for your sake I hope she's too depressed to come to work on Monday. Then again you'll just worry more if I know you. Who knows, maybe she'll get some help now.

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

You know, half of my hopes for the same thing. But I think she'll go all stubborn and come in just despite me. She really can be quite spiteful and I'll feel the force of that now I'm offside.