Ficlette: Crazy - S/X - 1/1

[suki_blue]

Title: Crazy

Genre: 1st Person POV Romance

Rating: R for references to violence and sex

Pairing: Spike/Xander

Summary: Xander wonders if he's crazy to be in love with Spike.

Feedback: Keeps me alive.

Beta'd by kitty_poker1 and posted in celebration of her Birthday tomorrow. I would like to dedicate this fic to her and also to amejisuto who has taken a fall and is not feeling too good at the moment. Love you both.






Crazy. That’s what he said I was, totally out of my mind crazy. This from a complete stranger. If I hadn’t thought he was quite so damn right, I would have clocked him. Bastard.

He’d only been enjoying the night, I guess; enjoying the club and enjoying the atmosphere. Then he’d made what could have been the most costly mistake of his life. He’d spoken to me. That was when Spike went crazy. He totally freaked out. Apparently, I was flirting. Apparently, I’m nothing but a slut when I’ve had a few to drink. I managed to stop him from ripping the innocent stranger limb from limb, but I didn’t quite manage to stop him from wrecking half the club.

Then, he’d asked. The stranger had asked why I bothered with such a freak. He said I was totally out of my mind crazy. Of course, he hadn’t counted on vampire hearing. Spike stopped trying to punch a hole the size of a window into the wall and concentrated on trying to rip out the guy’s innards. I had to put myself between them. I earned myself a lovely ‘shiner’ for that little act of bravery.

All the way home I thought about what that stranger had said. He said I was crazy. Me. Totally out of my mind crazy. Me. Not Spike. Me. I mean, hey, I wasn’t the one acting all psychotic. So why was I on the end of that particular observation?

Am I crazy? For being with Spike?

Do you think that Spike getting growly and jealous and smashing up that club made me hot for it? Do you think I get off on the violence? I don’t. I hate it. I hate that Spike thinks that he can control me. Who does he think he is, trying to tell me who I can and can’t talk to?

Spike scared a lot of people tonight. I don’t think that’s acceptable. So I told him.

At least I waited until we were in the privacy of our own home before I let rip.

My throat hurts now. I think I screamed too much. I really regret throwing those dishes. That’ll be the third time we’ve had to replace them this year. But that was Spike’s fault for saying that I deserved the black eye. I didn’t deserve it. And I know that he didn’t do it on purpose. It just really fucks me off that he’d rather pretend that he deliberately hit me than admit that his aim was off. Daft bugger. And yeah, I have been living in England far too long.

Do we fight a lot? Sometimes. Do we have hot, passionate, kinky sex afterwards? Of course. Sex with Spike is crazy. Crazy, wild, monkey sex. I like it. But it’s not why I stay.

I stay because we like the same cartoons.

I stay because he takes me to museums.

I stay because he sometimes brings me breakfast in bed. I learned early on to enjoy my toast cremated.

I stay because he confides in me.

I stay because he makes me stronger.

I stay because he sometimes lets me wear his famous leather duster

We have crazy sex, crazy fights and both have crazy taste in Japanese horror films.

I go crazy with excitement whenever he comes home.

He goes crazy with fear if I’m more than ten minutes late back from work.

We’re crazy obsessed with each other. Yeah, it’s definitely a two way thing. Craziness is infectious, you know?

Is it crazy that I’ll sit here staring at the door until he cools down and comes back home?

Is it crazy that I know he’ll be back with an apology larger than his ego in exactly five minutes and forty six seconds? Maybe.

So am I crazy? Yeah, commit me ‘cos, craziness? Thy name is Xander.

Oh, here he comes! And he’s bought me…flowers?! Now, *that* really is…



~fini~

Comments

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Aaaaaaaw! Flowers!

This? This is why they're perfect for each other. They're the same shade of crazy!

I love it, sweetie. :D

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Exactly! Totally made for each other. ~sigh~

Thank you!

[thedabara-cds.livejournal.com]

"Is it crazy that I know he’ll be back with an apology larger than his ego in exactly five minutes and forty six seconds? Maybe.

So am I crazy? Yeah, commit me ‘cos, craziness? Thy name is Xander."

This is fabulous. I love it!

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

~g~ Thank you!

[rayne-y-daze.livejournal.com]

I like this - great theme, and lovely ending. Flowers?!?! Yeah, I can see it. :-)

[bv97045.livejournal.com]

I really love your icon.....

Flavia

[rayne-y-daze.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :-)

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you! He, can't you just see Spike with a big bunch of roses?

[amejisuto.livejournal.com]

Wow luv! This is damn impressive! Not a happily ever after kind of love but a gritty real life kind of love where he pisses Xander off but they still love each other. Damn freaking good!

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie!

I love the idea of that kind of love; explosive and passionate.

[goddessleila.livejournal.com]

so perfect. sweet and just a little bit nuts at the same time.

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you!! Glad you enjoyed.

[samsara-sv.livejournal.com]

This is abso-frigging-lutely brilliant babes - love the listing/rundown of the relationship from Xander' pov and his self-knowledge....

::hugs::

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much!!

It's weird, but it's often those little things that make a relationship. I think Xander would think like that, too.

[tabaqui]

Heh.
I like. They're perfect for each other.
:)

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

And yeah, they certainly are. ~sigh~

[werewindle.livejournal.com]

Awwww Spike-pology. ^__^
They are so crazy-cute.

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Awwww Spike-pology.

LOL!

They are so crazy-cute.

The craziest and the cutest!

[stretfordditto.livejournal.com]

Heeee, flowers! Great fic.

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!

[vampirefever.livejournal.com]

Aww that was so cute.

*cuddles the boys and their crazy tempers*

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

~cuddles them, too~

[authoressnebula.livejournal.com]

Big AWWWWWWW coming your way, because this was so sweet. And so very real. No additional sweetness; he knows it's not the perfect romance people write about. But it's even cuter and greater because it's real. Did that make any sense? ^_^

I loved it sweetie.

~Nebula

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

LOL! That made perfect sense and I agree totally!

Thank you!

[reddwarf75.livejournal.com]

Not crazy, cute :)
Marie

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Maybe a bit of both, but mostly cute ;o)

[writan-bur.livejournal.com]

awwwww *snuggles Xander*

Wonderful glimpse into his mind and their relationship!

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[paradise4writin.livejournal.com]

Yay Suki fic!!

Aww flowers! I want flowers....

Wonderful job as always sweetie pie

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

I want flowers too! I spent ten years with a bloke and he never once bought me flowers. Bastard.

Thank you!!!!!!!!!

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

Can you say anything after you say perfect? I don't think so.

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

~blushes yet again~

Thank you, hon. ~hugs~

[tonicat.livejournal.com]

Aaaaaawww!
They're so cute and absolutely crazy..
The course of true love never did run smoothly...

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

Aren't they just? Awwww!

That's how you know it is true love, by the level of craziness!

[katbcoll.livejournal.com]

Love it. Can't even pick out a favorite part. Had a blast reading this.

Kat

[suki-blue.livejournal.com]

~g~ Thank you!