It was just so hard giving all this support to her. She'd had a hard life - a terrible life, if the truth be known. But it's clear to me that she'll never heal. She just won't help herself.

I did my best and I was there for her when she had the breakdown. I can't keep up that level of support and reasurrance for ever. it was like a total nightmare.

I still feel to utterly shit about it, though. I feel evil.